My Natural Scar

Wounds x Possibilities

Xiaoxiao’s natural scary leg skin

Photoed by Sophia, 2025

Talk with 枭枭：

“When I was a child, I didn't think it was a defect. However, when I was in middle school, I was called a “monster” by many female classmates from middle school onwards, especially during my three years of high school. In other seasons it was fine, but especially in summer, they said, "Why are you wearing a dress to scare people?

I realized that throughout my life, only my high school classmates were very discriminatory, but in college everyone was very open.

Our aesthetics were too homogeneous there.”

“Did you talk to your family when you were scarred by the discrimination of your classmates?” I asked Xiaoxiao.
“ No, I didn't. I couldn't really talk about it, my mom is a very strong and controlling parent, and at that time, she just told me to study and not to think too much about anything else. I was basically afraid to wear skirts and shorts outside until college. My mom didn't know about the discrimination on campus and when I got home I didn't want to tell her. Because I was afraid she would sue the school and make a big deal out of it. I had three years of major depression in junior high school, and now I've come out of it. Also because later went to Dalian Foreign Language (Dalian Foreign Language), also because went to Beijing public welfare industry, more friends up to get better.” Her tone lightened up for a moment when she mentioned her friend.

“其实我小时候也不觉得这是一种缺陷。结果到中学，从初中开始吧，尤其是高中三年，有很多女同学骂我是“怪物”。别的季节还好，尤其到了夏天，她们就说，你为什么穿裙子出来吓人啊？

我后来才发现我的整个人生中只有中学同学很歧视，到了大学大家都很open。

我们那里审美太单一了。”

“你当时被同学歧视伤疤的时候有和家里人聊一聊吗？” 我问枭枭。
“这个。。其实也没办法聊，我妈是一个很强势、很喜欢管控的家长，而且那个时候只是让我读书学习，不要想别的太多。大学之前我基本上是不敢在外面穿裙子穿短裤的。校园里的歧视我妈妈不知道，我回到家我也不想跟她说。因为我怕她告到学校，把事情闹大。初中三年有过三年的重度抑郁，现在走出来了。也是因为后来去了大外（大连外国语），也是因为去了北京公益行业，朋友多起来了就好了。” 她提到朋友的时候语气一下子变得轻快起来。